patience

so... if patience is a gift, why don't I have it?

ok so, I know it doens't work like that. but it would be nice.

"so, Zach, I got you a great present for Christmas: it's patience!" yeah, that'd be pretty sweet. but that's not how it works. lame. so, for now, patience is something to work for for. A noble goal, if I may say.

not that's it's easy or anything. to get patience, I mean. one must use patience to gain patience. isn't that how it works? well, you become patience by waiting and gaining a tolerance or ability to be still and not worry, stress or go crazy. that's probably closer to how it works.

easy?

Heck no.

but we must try.

Song: Get Me Right

Album: Alter the Ending

Dashboard Confessional

nights like these

those are the worst.

your head's at the wrong end of the bed and you stare up at the sky for hours. when your mind wanders and can't stop and wait to be rescued. when the only way out is the one you're two stubborned to take. rhymes no longer help and all you want to do is shoot sheep. yeah, those are the worst.

it's one of those. I'm up again and find myself so alone in my own strength. when will I learn? oh, wait, I won't.
There are so many distractions in this world that keep us from being fully alive. fully following our purpose in life. fully following the one true God. I can't keep a focus. I am not perfect.

that has a nice ring, doesn't it?
I. am. not. perfect.

one thing that I have had to learn to rely on is a fact that my weakness is His strength. the more weak and vulnerable I am, the stronger and more powerful He is. There is power in the phrase "Let go and let God."
so, let it guide you on nights like these.
Goodnight.

lost and defenseless

late night falls with no life
my soul screams for sound
lost and alone inside me
I want nothing more than to be found.

wandering with dark surrounding
feeling nothing at all
i have become the zombie
life pumps with no cause.

the worse are mindless words
careless on both sides
they lead to pain like dagger wounds
tearing deep the alive.

search high and low for aid
an elixir for the blade
to fix the past
and heal the gash
scream out heaven's name.

simple truths

well, it's been awhile since I have put anything on here. a month or five. the beauty of this is that I really have nothing to add.

However, I have learned a few things:
1. don't eat gum that you find on the floor; it could be Nicorette.

2. sometimes less words have more of a meaning than more words.

3. time is the only thief that justice has no hold on.

4. you can get addicted to anything. especially Hulu.

5. silence is golden.

6. It's better God's way. Don't rush into things.

7. iTunes has a pretty good system: hooked up to your credit card. this can be a killer (see # 4).

8. To find the best things, one must look hard. They are often hidden.

9. People are stupid, they believe what they want to.

10. Skittles are the best candy. (this knowledge has been known for ages, however, it is always something to revisit).

These are my newest nuggets of knowledge. I hope you enjoy them.