nights like these

those are the worst.

your head's at the wrong end of the bed and you stare up at the sky for hours. when your mind wanders and can't stop and wait to be rescued. when the only way out is the one you're two stubborned to take. rhymes no longer help and all you want to do is shoot sheep. yeah, those are the worst.

it's one of those. I'm up again and find myself so alone in my own strength. when will I learn? oh, wait, I won't.
There are so many distractions in this world that keep us from being fully alive. fully following our purpose in life. fully following the one true God. I can't keep a focus. I am not perfect.

that has a nice ring, doesn't it?
I. am. not. perfect.

one thing that I have had to learn to rely on is a fact that my weakness is His strength. the more weak and vulnerable I am, the stronger and more powerful He is. There is power in the phrase "Let go and let God."
so, let it guide you on nights like these.
Goodnight.