lyrical melodies

Some people can thrown down some words and put some guitar or keys to it and get billions of dolalrs for it. Some people can write nonsense on a pience of paper and get someone else to make it sound good at put them in the video. I can't seem to do either.

my words are jumbled. I can write out thoughts here but I can't add music and I can't write profound words into music. I can't seem to find my sound.

I can't find my lick or my little trick. I'll play for hours but I'm purely overwhelmed by the possibilities and I can't get anywhere. There are probably thousands of words in the English language and I can't put a few together and add some music. why is this?

can I not hear my heart? can I not hear the sounds around me? why is this?